Life aint about planning, its about livin!

A couple of days since my last post, but I figured i should let people think over what I wrote the last time. Anyway, since the last post, I have been trudging to classes, back and forth, back and forth, kind of like a swinging pendulum, forever doomed to follow the laws of gravity, without choice or say in the matter. The mind numbingness that follows from such activities is unexplainable, or can be explained only from ones who actually put in work I guess. Otherwise, things progress quietly into the night, as day turns to night, and night to day.
So instead of writing a diatribe against my daily life I think I will take this time to appreciate what I have. I wish I could say I thank the stars that I have everything. True I dont have everything I wished for, but I have more than I could ever imagine. Back in tenth, I thought I had a future all planned out. I was living in US, given admission to Aerospace in Cornell, I was good at mathematics, really good, I loved it to tell the truth. It was a life I thought I had all planned out. Then the shocking news came that my father is shifting back to India. All that I thought I knew, out the window more or less. From my cousins I knew of the education system in India. To my parents, I knew it was inevitable, being at whatever maturity level I was at, I never said anything and I think it was the right decision. Anyway, I knew about JEE and all that, I had looked on it as something big, something I never had to do and all. Lot of work involved, something I never really did. All the stuff I did in US really came pretty easily without a lot of work. After I came back, two years through coaching centers of Hyderabad, I was at a place where I could call myself one of the best in India, and this was a point I never would have reached without the help of my parents. Half the credit would go to them for this and for this I would like to thank God for my parents. Anyway, this was some of the best work I had done in my entire life. I became the best at mathematics, not that my marks in JEE showed it. There was an entire shelf of books that I could proudly say I had read through. Anyway, I liked being drunk on the work of feverish nights and burning the midnight oil. That was one of the high points of my life. Not that I measure my life in success or failure but that was one success no one could ever take that away from me.
Anyway, what I wanted to say in this is that life changes all the time, and whatever you have planned for and thought about, it could be really different. So all the plans that you have, just take a moment and realize that you have to be prepared for whatever life has to throw at you.
I guess thats my life's lesson for the day more for myself than anything else. With my first job that came up and leaving IITR, I guess thats my plan but I have no idea where I will be in two months from now, let alone my career plans or anything. I always wanted to be in applied mathematics, but now I am in civil engineering, and about to shift to a career in consultancy in finance. Some change I guess..
Anyway on the literary side, I figured I should put up another poem, one of my favorites, Annabel Lee by Edgar Allen Poe..Its about his love for a girl named Annabel Lee.. She being his mistress and dying young.. Really touching poem and one that expresses love completely..
Annabel Lee
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea:
But we loved with a love that was more than love -
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her high-born kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me -
Yes! that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud one night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we -
Of many far wiser than we -
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling -my darling -my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea -
In her tomb by the sounding sea.